Me and the Stranger

I met a stranger long ago.
This stranger suddenly asked me questions.
After a couple week, the stranger asked me to have lunch together.
Then I have this feeling with the stranger.

Months after months.
One day, the stranger asked me to have dinner together.
The stranger asked me that question.
After that, we have this consensus.

At first, the stranger was nice.
But then something happened.
I was very mad at the stranger.
I was very mad until that feeling suddenly gone.
But I accepted the stranger's apology.
Why? Just to make everything okay, because it was a special day and I didn't want it to be ruined.

After that happened, the stranger changed.
Until now.
I overly cried about the stranger.
Sometimes I ask myself, was it a good step to agree with the consensus?
Do I regret what I've done?

For me, that consensus is a principle.
So I'll do my best to make that consensus stay lasting.
I've sacrificed everything to meet the stranger real life. I even lied to my parents to make the stranger's bornday special.
But the stranger?
I've made the stranger special, giving the stranger my best attention.
But the stranger?
I often tell the stranger that I miss the stranger and I often asked to have a call or even a video call.
But the stranger?
I've made plans to celebrate our special day. I even bought a special present.
But the stranger couldn't came home. The stranger even didn't ask me to have a call or video call to at least celebrate it in long-distance way.

I feel like what I've done are worthless.
No, I don't take something for granted.
But I feel like there's just me who fight for the consensus.
There's just me who want to make the consensus stay longer.
There's just me who want to make us happy.

Then now, I'm at this point that makes me think about this over and over again.
Is this worth to fight? Even when I'm not happy being in this consensus?

Dear Stranger, I hope that you read this and give me the answer.